Life was going a lot better until right now. I feel so alone, unloved, and worthless. Sometimes I wonder if I would be better off actually alone, with no one, to really find myself. Maybe being dependent on my boyfriend and even friends at any amount is making me weak, frail, and moving backwards. I thought these people pretty much made up my life - but little conversations with them, interactions, simple thoughts just turn me upside down.
I don’t love myself still. I don’t know what else to do, again, to get past this. Maybe I need to leave and get away from society and people. Go somewhere alone and focused.
I am just feeling so heartbroken for no reason.